Bad news

Someone once told me "Its not an adventure until something goes wrong." Well something went wrong.

My camera started acting up 2 days ago during a boudoir shoot with a bride I'm doing a wedding for. I thought it might've been in my settings but I realized today my shutter might be dying. Its an older body so it makes sense, but very bad timing! I leave in 7 days, what do I do?

Do I send it to Canon to get it fixed? I haven't been quoted a price yet but I know it'd take a minimum of a week and a half. I'll be up north by then, no one local can fix it. I've listed it for sale and hopefully someone is going to get it. It doesn't need an immediate fix but itll need something at some point soon and I can't afford that time.

Now: what do I do about a camera in the mean time? In my asking of friends about places to fix this, someone mentioned having a camera they can sell me. They're in Charlotte and fortunately I'll be there Saturday because I have a photo shoot there that day. Very fortunate. He absolutely helped me out although I wasn't expecting this expense. This sets me back a little bit for expenses on my road trips because as of now I won't be working on the road. So my money will dwindle fairly quickly.

So because of those thoughts, I've been thinking about what is after my trips ? When do I stop? Do I have an exit strategy? And where do I want to be? How do I expect to make money once the little bit I have saved runs out?

All of those thoughts run in and out of my mind. I won't let it stop me. Too many people are dying now a days and I don't want to die knowing I just sat around and did nothing. That I didn't explore this world, that I didn't meet as many people as possible and laugh as often as I could. I can't let that happen. I'm not saying if you don't live like this you're wrong, but I don't envy the 9-5. I envy the consistent money and I love the idea of stability but once I get a taste of it I become claustrophobic.

I hope my trip is more fruitful than its starting out to be, I don't want to be bitter before it begins. I want to be as optimistic as a kid and see things happen that are completely out of my comfort zone.

I won't let today beat me up.