The 'Why'

A lot of people keep asking me the same question over and over: Why? Its a pretty simple question and I should be able to answer it but for the longest time I couldn't. I just said 'Why not?', and although that's a perfectly acceptable reason in my mind I felt compelled to really figure out why.

For the longest time I've had this feeling inside of me, this yearning to just go somewhere. To meet these people I haven't met before and see these things I haven't even thought of yet. I'm scared, yes, definitely but that's good. I don't want the mundane/boring or anything resembling what every day life tends to be for most people.  Day in and day out, rinse lather and repeat.

My best friend said he couldn't do this. He said he'd be afraid he'd be killed, and he's a much larger and scarier looking guy than me. Irrational fear? I don't know. That's his fear, who am I to call it irrational? Hell, I'm terrified of butterflies so I can't say anything. The point is, why be afraid of what you can't control? Or even if you can, why worry? I would rather die by someone out on the road than of heart disease from eating one too many Cook Out treys in front of the TV. At least my life would be something to talk about.

I'm lying here in bed as I write this. Music playing and windows open so I have the sound of beautiful music and the sound of nature going on right outside my window and all I can think of is how much I want to be on the road right now. Its not that simple. I don't necessarily want to be on the road, I want to be meeting people but I can't do that at 3am just anywhere. Maybe NYC but certainly not just anywhere.  Actually in most places I can't.

I've got 4 boxes packed. Just 4. And I have less than 2 weeks left in my house. I'm such a procrastinator. I will be dropping my stuff at my best friends' in Winston-Salem and then almost immediately hitting the road for the north east. When I get back I'll he hitting the road almost immediately (again) and going to Virginia &  West Virginia to explore some mountains and the mountain folk. Maybe meet some Uncle Dads or Aunt Moms. Or are those Mormons? I kid, I kid. I think I just offended a lot of people with that one. My apologies.

With that said, I'm going to try and sleep. I have a bridal shoot in the afternoon I need to get prepped for. I hope I didn't drink coffee too late last night....